Blows to the head; contents; prologue; 1. a dirty sport; 2. women; 3. vos is dos?; 4. take me on; 5. love me, love my cigar; 6. a joy to be hidden; 7. an endless scream; 8. requiem for a heavyweight; 9. risks; 10. siblings; 11. john calls the fight; 12. making contact and collective rage; 13. mind over matter; 14. namesake; 15. combat; 16. pain and violent zen; 17. annie oakley's anxieties; 18. still a man's world; 19. let my people box; 20. poet laureate of plainview; coda; acknowledgments