Front Cover -- Title Page -- Copyright -- Half Title -- About the Author -- Dedication -- Author's Note -- Contents -- Prologue -- 1. August 2014 -- 2. Some of life's complexities 1940s/1970s -- 3. Vera and Cecil 2014/1950s-1960s -- 4. Life isn't always just 1970s -- 5. Stigma and secrets 1974 -- 6. Breaking the cycle 1975-76 -- 7. A time to act 2014/1976 -- 8. Steve's spiral and other upheavals 1975 -- 9. An unsplendid isolation 2014/1977-78 -- 10. Distractions 1980 -- 11. Holidays 1984-85/2015 -- 12. Consequences 1985-86/2015 -- 13. Deeper into the darkness 1988/2015
14. Waxing and waning 1988-95/2015-16 -- 15. Defeating the West Indies 1995-2000/2016 -- 16. Welcome to the real world 2016/2000 -- 17. Things they don't tell you 2016-17 -- Postscript -- Acknowledgements
