Cover -- Endorsements -- Half Title -- Series -- Title -- Copyright -- Dedication -- Contents -- List of paintings -- Foreword -- Preface and acknowledgements -- Introduction -- Part 1 Background -- 1 "Can I be both?" -- 2 Early stages -- 3 The artist's matrix -- Part 2 The paintings -- 4 Dolls and demons -- 5 The deserted city -- 6 Fragile nature -- 7 Dancers -- 8 Four women -- Part 3 Reflection and review -- 9 A deeper view -- 10 Concluding thoughts -- References -- Index